Dear Sabbath Seekers,
I’m exhausted mentally, physically and bordering on emotionally too. I am praying that spiritually I am still on my feet. Being pushed to my limit has reminded me just how quickly life can become overwhelming. And I feel guilty because the things that are exhausting me are not tragic, unresolvable, or long-term. There are far too many people dealing with war, poverty, illness and grief to even compare my little blips on an overwhelm scale. And no matter how often I tell myself this, I’m still fighting an internal battle to keep my body, mind and spirit on an even keel.
So, I’ve decided not to pretend everything is ok and face the stressors head on – deal with those that can be dealt with, get help with those I can’t handle alone and let myself feel what I am feeling knowing it will pass. I have come to realize that by pretending all is well and that I am just dandy has often caused me more exhaustion than just acknowledging that this is a difficult time and letting it all out.
The same is true with how open, vulnerable and honest I am with God. If I keep trying to hide my true feelings from God or pretend I am 100% together spiritually, then I am only kidding myself and depleting my spiritual energy. God knows how I am feeling even before I do so why hide it or pretend.
My Old Testament professor in seminary was fond of reminding us that God does some of God’s best work when we cry out.
So I’m not hiding out in my Sabbath Moments this week. I will let it all hang out trusting that God knows and understands what I most need. How about you? Do you find yourself hiding from God or pretending that all is well when your insides are crumbling under the weight of life’s ups and downs? Join me in real, open Sabbath moment sharing and see what happens to your energy and how God will bless your integrity.
“In my distress I called to the Lord, I cried to my God for help. From his temple he heard my voice; my cry came before him, into his ears…He reached down from on high and took hold of me; he drew me out of deep waters.” Psalm 18.6, 16