Dear Sabbath Seekers,
I have just finished reading Pastrix by Nadia Bolz-Weber. If you have never heard of Pastor Nadia before, she is the tattooed, irreverent, profound, deeply spiritual, constantly seeking answers to theological questions that most of us are too shy to ask or attempt to answer for ourselves pastor and my new hero. I want to be like her or at least be a better human being as a pastor and a better pastor as a human being because of her audacity.
Her book hooked me from the introduction and it was hard to put it down. She reminded me of why I answered the call of God and she convicted me that I had gotten lazy in my answer.
And some of you will find her irreverence and audacity heresy. However, I am proclaiming out loud that I did not. I found her a breath of fresh air in the midst of spiritual crises, clap trap that passes as gospel and theological wrestling matches. I found her real.
She inspired me more than anything I have ever written or read before to maintain and increase my Sabbath moments, to open myself up more to God in my day-to-day life, and to let go of the should’s, platitudes and pat answers that invade my mind when I let down my guard against theological cotton candy and the party line.
Here is a quote that stopped me in my reading: “We are tempted to doubt our innate value precisely to the degree that we are insecure about our identity from, and our relationship to, God.” (page 139).
This sentence sums up the contradiction I often feel and hear many times from others. I/we feel that we cannot be close to God because we are not good enough or we messed up so we avoid hanging out with God and talking to God. She turns that upside down and says unless we are close to God and realize we are a beloved child of God’s without doing anything on our part to earn it, we will feel insecure about our worth and who we are.
Sabbath is not only God’s gift of rest to us but it is also God’s way of helping us be closer to God developing a strong sense of self in order to know and claim that we are truly a child of God. The more we claim that, the more the world will be changed by our very presence.
“You’re here to be light, bringing out the God-colors in the world.” Mt. 5.14 The Message
PS I am a Pastrix too defined by New Wineskins Dictionary.com as 1) a term of insult used by unimaginative sections of the church to define female pastors; 2) Female ecclesiastical superhero: Trinity from The Matrix in a clerical collar; 3) cranky, beautiful, faith of a Sinner and a Saint.
PPS: Don’t forget to order your copy of my book: A Sabbath Journey – a little child shall lead them to use as a monthly devotional book that will give you lots of ways to experience Sabbath Moments throughout the year. It is available through Amazon.com